Faster, ran, there is no time! I am sick - all pale, wet, shivering, feeling like my bones breaking. But next to me hear a tiny, three-year child pure voice, "Mom, mom..." "Shut up, you don’t see – mom is sick?" No attention to daughter. Each uttered sound causes aggression. One wish, only one driving force - drug dose. Then I find, using, and hate myself for what I do, for what I am today. I say to myself - stop! Seeking a way out, but it seems that I have no longer any exit. Detoxification, methadone program, psychiatrists, addiction specialists, monasteries... I'm so far gone through this and every time when I quit, I thought it is forever. However, this freedom did not last for long. And again - morning, I am sick, but in the head there is a single desire - drug dose. I was dying being and dragged with me closest people. I was looking at the child, but inside me was emptiness, indifference. I will feed her, dress up and will bring to the garden. But to play with you - do not even ask me. It's uninteresting, do not come to me, every part of me hurts and all and all – do not sing, your voice annoys me... My child’s father died of a drug use, and I knew if I won’t quit, it will be the same for me. Five years ago, my mom found out about the centre, where former drug addicts help to get rid of drug addiction. I called them and arranged a meeting. To be honest, I did not think that I will go to the centre for a whole year. I generally just wanted to meet, perhaps get some advice on how to quit, but no to go to the centre. Perhaps these people self-confidence and appearance spoke for themselves - two joyful, strong men. I stood there gray and tired of life. They said – there is a way out. The only way for you now - social adaptation centre. It's your opportunity - do not miss it. And I took this opportunity. I am grateful to the Centre and the people who are here and help, that they did not allow me to go down and die. And now everything is so good that I want constantly to smile. I hear the voice of my babe and feel happy!
Their names are Evgeny and Sergey, they are 32 years old. Sixteen “perfume” years. More recently, these twin brothers died slowly in the basement. Their health was completely destroyed; limited physical coordination, as well as serious problems was encountered with the ability to speak. Public organization "Independence Balt." volunteers found them and took to the help centre for addicts. Already at this moment their life has clearly improved, and they have a desire to become valuable members of our state community.
My name is Sergey, I am 33 years old. From age 12 I began to live dissolute life. I started to take time off from school, did not came at home, rambled through the stairways, used alcohol and pills, snuffed glue and smoked. That’s how I became a drug addict for 15 years. I absolutely could not get rid of drugs. I used even while I was in prison. Nor detoxification nor treatment showed any results. Once again when I stood at the abyss left with nothing, and there was nowhere to go, no one needed me, I began to seriously look for help and ended up in the centre of social adaptation "Independence Balt.".
Already for one and a half years, I do not use drugs, I also quit smoking and do not use swear words. I am learning to live a whole new life. Thanks to centre!
My name is Christine. My life was damaged by drugs. I lost everything, and my family was disbanded. I am 24 and 8 of them I was using drugs. At first, it did not bring me any problems, but by the time everything became more complicated. In me there was nothing, with the exception of emptiness, fear and loneliness. Appeared indifference to everything. At one moment, I realized that my life must not continue like that. If I do not stop it now, no other options can be there. I am very glad that I got in the centre of social adaptation. When I came here, I still did not see my future. By the time I started to change, changed my character, my life and my way of thinking. Everything turned out to be simple, the main thing - to make the right decision to abandon the old one. I previously did not feel the way I feel now. I am grateful to this centre and the people who help me. I know that this is my last chance and I won’t miss it.
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